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Being still is not an easy feat, the mind wants nothing more than to jump from March to May. To watch, observe and listen, opens the mind to awareness. Awareness leads to less stress, good health and happiness. If we … Continue reading

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A Month of Strange Happenings..

The last few weeks have made up a bit of a strange month as weird, off-color occurrences have plagued me . Now, in the grand scheme of things it isn’t life altering or devastating so I’m not looking to gripe. The thing is… I haven’t really ‘sat’ with my thoughts and tried to ‘be present,’  in fact, I’ve been less than…. which makes me wonder if those strange thought processes really do wire the body to experience negativity.

A. I was in a fender-bender( nothing serious, well for me it was, because I felt that it made me a bad driver, and I’m extremely vigilant when on the move which sort of borders on extreme paranoia. Also I clearly thought it was the man’s fault).

B. My husband had rocks thrown at his car when he was driving along to lunch just minding his own bees-wax.

C. My medical reports came back spelling ugh!! that dreaded surgery – no, no, nothing serious yet again, weeeell, a tiny bit perhaps, if you consider that my general well-being depends on the removal of certain invaders that love to grow within, due to a rise and flux of hormones.. yuck!

D. Another test revealed more invaders requiring further testing to satisfy everyone all around.

I’m not prone to feeling sorry for myself, rather,  life goes on and I would much rather get to the bottom of things as quickly as possible. Imagine then when I did sit to gather my thoughts, (negative and positive) where they traveled?  it was sort of like an European vacation- I took a train from London to Spain, to Portugal and Morocco, except that it was all mental and there was no focus whatsoever.  In the middle of all of this, I met with a very wise and intuitive being I have  known for a very long time but have no access to, as he lives  all the way in Australia.  I was so lucky he was visiting. Quite simply all of the strange happenings within the last month made sense. Not only did I learn how much negative thinking influences positive energy, even to the point of wiping it all out, I also learned to fix the mind on something as simple as counting from 1-10, 10-1 and all the way back to 1-10 when inhaling and exhaling out. Imagine that? I discovered that the mind just like the body needs a change, and when you hit a plateau, you sort of change things around to get back on track.

Mummy’s busy mind meditates…..

Have you ever sat down with the intent to  ‘just be’ and then when you sit with that very intention, you are everywhere but centered?. Hmmm, I did exactly this, last week. Honestly, most days I manage to watch my thoughts, and they are pretty challenging thoughts – but on Thursday my mind was buzzing a mile a minute. I could not slow it down. They were random thoughts really, in the manner of…

a.Must DVR Colin Firth’s interview on Piers Morgan tonight b. what should I have for lunch? I’m hungry. c. Must DVR Colin Firth on ‘Inside the Actor’s Studio, d. Must cook interesting dinner for lovely family e. I love my children – may they always be well, happy and healthy. f. must watch my breath – inhale, exhale, watch it move, long breath, short breath, no, no, must not travel anywhere else. g. Oh okay- Colin Firth will win Oscar. h. I am now centered, mind will not wander off, mind is quite normal, mind is watching breath instead. i. must read new book – love reading. j. mind feels better, does not want to run anymore. Would just like to focus on breath. k. Can feel breath, will do it again tomorrow. l. Must get to yoga…. hmmm, must stop now, mind is quite tired from sitting quietly.

Mummy meditates on the go- um, sometimes…

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Due to sheer hubris, I latched on to the idea – sort of  like glue – that I knew lots about meditation, no really, I did, and yet, when I sat down to it, I knew nothing. I mean really, absolutely nothing. Eventually, however, that simple act of sitting allowed me a glimpse of how much I needed to learn; learn how  to be, how the mind worked, learn about ego and how to sit productively. I was short on time and completely out of practice, so of course, I figured, just a few days of meditation and the mind would fit into that notion of “I am pretty good at this.” I have since decided my  ‘ego’, needed to take a very large break and um, “sitting” involved a close look at just how much work controlling the speed of the mind took.

I am always on a quest for time… summer holidays are almost over and we’ve traveled the world. We’ve spent time in a vacuüm, a space that is just for us, it has been blissful.  In trying to hold onto that peaceful space, I realize I don’t want to get back on the road to drive. It is a long drive to school, an hour each way. The thing is I am now attached to that feeling of peace, and want nothing more than to avoid traffic and long hours in a car. So completely unrealistic of me when I have children.!! Training the mind requires a lot of work – It doesn’t quite end,  it never ends, actually. They say sit and be aware, but when I sit, I’m aware of more than just sitting. When you think you’re over one hurdle, another one begins – sound familiar? kind of like life isn’t it? since I am always on the move, I try meditating on the go. My previous proper attempt was quite a serene experience. Not just a focus on breath, but more an extending of unconditional love to all beings; starting with myself. I was on a walk with my daughter’s class and there was a child who had recently been receiving treatment for a rare form of bone cancer,  she looked frail and yet, somehow healthy, in that amazing juxtaposition of vitality and fragility only a child could display.  I found as I walked, my thoughts focused on the little body, the skeletal structure and bones. I allowed myself to extend compassion and all the love I could, from this body to that little one- in a strange  non-verbal exchange of vibrations and energy. It was really quite incredible to be so selfless in that moment. Lesson: Meditating on the go- an absolute must. Not in any way meant to be a substitute for a regular sitting. It is quite an experience. Oh, and being “present” mentally, is quite the challenge, no matter how many articles, books or websites tout their ability to help you, being present is kind of like respect. You earn it. You pummel the mind until it can be present, not  taking one step back into the past or two steps into the future.. as in what do I make for dinner tonight or what time is soccer practice. All of this will explode in the mind when you sit quietly. More so than when you are immersed in a task. It is difficult to compartmentalize. You simply cannot put dinner thoughts, tomorrow’s thoughts and today’s activities into separate jars- ‘mental’ jars that is. When external disturbances are many, it is always better to accept the disturbances and see where they go when you give it a tiny bit of attention, and gently acknowledge the mind when your focus returns to simple breathing. If breath is an issue, you can count to 10 and back, as you watch the body breathe in and out. I mean, we don’t really spend time noticing our breath do we? we think it’s the most normal thing in the world, we can’t live if don’t breathe. Although we don’t really pay our breath any attention.  However, in order to be present, aware and in that space, watching the breath becomes tantamount to reflection, where the mind wants to travel and how it thinks. The mind is your guide, it is an incredible tool, using it productively means you learn to live well. When you connect the mind to your body, they both function as one, it is really quite beautiful, it doesn’t always last but the practice is certainly worth your time.